I know that my Redeemer lives, and that in the end he will stand upon the earth. - Job 19:25(NIV)

It was nice but cold this morning as I road my bike to work, I was glad to get in the warm the rest of the day was fine but I was glad to get home. I am of the bed now as I need some sleep.

Had an interesting day today, church this morning was ok but it could of been better. I also preached twice today one service at 3pm and the other at 6pm so I haven’t had much time today. Mandy, James an I have managed to spend some time together but not as much as I was hoping. I am about to go to bed as I have got to get up at 420am to got to work so that it about all for today.

I haven't stopped since I got up this morning at 0630 when James came in to see me, I feel very sleepy and Mandy is just as bad she need more sleep than me but I am not shore how we are both as bad as each other with things happening. One thing we have done today it to get a black out blind for James bedroom window in the hope that it will make him sleep in more because we think it is the sun that is waking him up so early. James' room in filled with sunlight for most of the morning and when I went in this morning his room was full of light even though the curtains were closed. so we are pretty shore that it is the sun that is waking him up, I couldn't sleep in his room if I was him with the way the sun comes in I only hope that it will work.

I have just joined a new web ring one specifically for Brits it is called Blogging Brits. So I would like to point you to the new link on the page and I hope that you find some new Blogs to read. just a small note the code hasn't been activated yet but it should be in the next 72 hours so keep trying.

There is always something left to love. If you haven't learned that, you ain't learned nothing. — Lorraine Hansberry

We know what we are, but we know not what we may become. — William Shakespeare

I have been very busy today at work. When I got home I just sat down and stopped for an hour. I am just listening to some music and chilling before I go to bed. I am preaching twice on Sunday so I have got some things to prepare and then I think I will go to bed I hope to get some rest this weekend as I am on mornings next week so I will not get any sleep, but what is new.

I have been thinking today about forgiveness and how far I would forgive some one if I had to, the reason is still because of the book that I am reading. I think that I would like to say that I would look to Jesus and forgive anything that comes my way but I also know that I am only human and it is hard to forgive. I would have to say that I hope that I will never have to be put to the test. I know from my small experience of life that when I have been tested I like to think that I have past. I would have to think hard if it was somthing involving my wife and son. I hope and pray that I will never have to go though anything like some people in the world. I think about how easy my life is compared to some. My mind turns to the Middle East where innocent people have been hurt and killed for just what the believe. I pray for them and at the same time thank God that I live in a country where I am free and for the most safe to walk the streets with out fear. My family are safe and I have a good life but what would I feel is some one took it all away from me? I would have to think, would I forgive or would I hate? I again have to look to Simon Wiesenthal book the Sunflower and say that from my own personal point of view, I doubt that I could have done anything differently than Simon Wiesenthal did. I’d like to think and hope that I would have the presence of mind and soul to tell that dying soldier to pray for his God’s mercy and forgiveness, because I would not feel empowered to forgive him in the name of six million murdered victims. I cannot help but feel it would be beyond my limits of forgiveness to speak for them. Simon Wiesenthal lost eighty-six members of his own family, virtually every single one of his relatives, in the concentration camps. I cannot imagine carrying that kind of soul-crushing loss. I cannot imagine being anything but lost and embittered by such an unspeakable tragedy. That is how I know I still have work on my faith but I thank God that I have got Jesus to turn to and I pray that if I was asked my faith would be made strong.

My salvation and my honor depend on God; he is my mighty rock, my refuge. - Psalm 62:7(NIV)

The Simon Wiesenthal Center is an international Jewish human rights organization dedicated to preserving the memory of the Holocaust by fostering tolerance and understanding through community involvement, educational outreach and social action. The Center confronts important contemporary issues including racism, antisemitism, terrorism and genocide and is accredited as an NGO both at the United Nations and UNESCO.

I have had an interesting week this week because I have been working on my own for most of it and I am feeling very tired. also I have been burning the candle at both ends so to speak so I haven't had much time to get in front of the computer to do anything part from red my mail. Mandy and James are fine but James had caught a cold which means that he is keeping up at night, other than that things are ok here.
I have been reading my book, The Sunflower, quite a lot this week and it has made me rethink a few things about what had happened to the Jews during the second world war I have also watched a few films this week on the same subject, I still can't get over the fact that the it only happened sixty years ago. I can't say any more because for one I am not a Jew and two I wasn't even born when it was happening, I can only imagine and that is bad enough for me. I know one thing I will never look a sunflower again without thinking about the what happened to the Jews.

I have started back at work today and I was not happy because I am now running the department on my own. R is off sick and K has left the company so that leaves me to runt eh show. I am told that they are trying to find some help but it will take at least three weeks before the know and then six weeks to train them up, so I am in for a long hall.
the rest of the day has been grate and I have finally got my book from the library and so I have started a new book called The Sunflower by Simon Wiesenthal. So far it seems to be a good book and I think that it will be a fast read so I will have to think of what to read next.
Mandy and James are ok and I think that Mandy still can't get over the look of her new kitchen which makes me glad that have done it. I am feeling fine and am glad that I am feeling better, a freind at work said that I look a lot better that I did last time he saw me and I think that he is right. that's it for now I think that I will read some more of my book and will hopefully get some sleep.

Blessed is the man who trusts in the Lord, whose confidence is in him. He will be like a tree planted by the water that sends out its roots by the stream. It does not fear when heat comes; its leaves are always green. It has no worries in a year of drought. - Jeremiah 17:7-8(NIV)

I haven't been online much over the last few days as I haven't felt like it much because of being ill. I am 100% now and am going to go back to work tomorrow. What little time that I have had to myself has been very busy because Mandy and I have finished the kitchen off over the last few days. Mandy is so happy to have a nice kitchen I think that she is feeling on top of the world. I can also say that we are both very tired and in need of rest because we haven’t stopped all weekend but it has been worth it. our Youth Fellowship come around this evening and it was just cool to sit and talk about thing but I was glad when then all left because I just feel like I need to be in bed sleeping. So that is all that I can say, I am going to bed knowing that I am getting up for work tomorrow and that I am feeling a lot better.

Sitting around the house, not doing very much.
The Libaray have my book now, can't wait to read it. But will have to wait for Mandy to get coz I still can't leave the house.
I have started to read Star Teck New Worlds New Civilizations. short book should not take long to read.

I am feeling a lot better but I still have some spots on my hands and feel and my mouth is still sore but I have been to the doctors and she has signed me of work until Monday to get myself better. Mandy took my sick note in to work yesterday and I can't help but think about what they thought when the saw what was on it because at first glance it looks like Foot and Mouth, I was half expecting a phone call from some one to see if that was the case but I haven't so far. I have always said that with not having an sick time of work for more that three and a half years if and when I did go sick it would be something strange and I would be of for at least a week.
so for most of the week I have been sleeping and just sitting around that house trying to rest I can't remember what it is like to go out side and walk down a street. I have spent some time in the garden because the weather has been fantastic but wasn't out for long because it haven't felt up to it. one other good thing is that I have had chance to read my books and I have read Philip Yancey's book twice because I like it so that is one good thing. I haven't stared anything else yet I am looking for something no to read although I have phoned the library and asked it they could get me a book called the Sunflower by Simon wiesenthal I would like to read it because Philip Yancey referred to it in his book and also I have also heard that it is good but emotionally hard book to read so, I think that I will wait for that to come before I start anything else. I think that's about all that has happened today I wonder what tomorrow will bring?

I am feeling a little better today but I am still not right. I have had some interesting new about my nephew in your who was staying with us last week end he is also ill and has a viral infection called Hand foot and Mouth this has nothing to do with the Foot and Mouth that we see in animals. Interestingly the symptoms are much like a common cold with a rash and guess what I have now got a rash coming on my hands and feet, so I think that I have got it as well. I may be wring but I remember him kissing me on the mouth that it can be pasted on that way so I have got a good chance of having it although adults don't often get it but it just seems to fit the symptoms. I had high fever, diarrhoea, and sore joints and now red spots on my hands and feet. I am told that it is not more that having a bad cold and that is I was to have it then I should treat it as the same and it should be over in a few days. I hope so.

I have got the flu and I feel like some one has hit me on the head. I came home from work early yesterday feeling very bad. I have just woken up after spending the last 11 hours in bed and I can't sleep any more. I still feel bad but the thought of spending any more time in bed is making me feel even worse. I hope that I am better soon although I don't think that I will be going to work today.

James had had a grate day on his birthday today. He couldn't wait to open al his presents and the play with the toys that he got. The funny think is that he was still up when I got home at ten tonight playing with is toys. Mandy said that he has been full of himself all day, one good thing that has happened today was that he also has given up his dummy because he is a "big boy now". I think that he had been a very good boy today. I still can't get over the fact that he is four.

I only ask to be free. The butterflies are free. — Charles Dickens

What can I say? I am back at work and I still wish that it was the weekend but I know that some how I have to pay the bills. Mandy, James and I both visited down town to have a look at their toy department today James had been given some money for his birthday so we let him chose some presents for tomorrow. he has got some more duplo to build with so he is happy.
The sun was out to day but is seemed a lot colder today than yesterday so I have to put a jumper on I only hoped that it will be ok for the Cliff weekend. I have also booked my next holiday of at work so it looks like Mandy, James and I will all be going away for the last week in July I can't wait.
It is James Birthday tomorrow, I can still remember back four years ago when Mandy was in hospital waiting to give birth, it really dose feel like it was yesterday I can't think where all the time has gone I only hope that it don't go as fast next year.

Today has been a lovely day I can say that I wished that that weekend had not ended but I know it has to. The only bad thing that happed was that while travelling home the A1 was blocked so we had to make a detour over the Humber Bride which James love and kept on saying again, again, much to Mandy’s discussed because she hates heights and the bridge was very height and she was driving, other than that I have had one of the best weekends that I have had in a long time and I think that James will be left with his Grand Parents more often from now on.
Friendship is a sheltering tree. — Samuel Taylor Coleridge

I have managed to get in front of J’s computer at his house and I thought that I would just take this opportunity to post. Mandy and I have been enjoying having some time away from James, while he is staying at his grandparents for the weekend. I must admit that I feel a bit misplaced without him around but I know that he is in good hands; I think that Mandy does love not having to do the mother thing for the night she is having a wonderful time. I am just letting my time go slowly by enjoying the conversation and the excellent food, which is provided by J’s wonderful mother and father the only sad thing is that we only have a short time here be for we have to go home but that seems to be a very long way off for now. That’s about all that I have to say for now but I hope to be home latter today so I will post then. Life is good and fiends are even better.

Those who contemplate the beauty of the earth find reserves of strength that will endure as long as life lasts. — Rachel Carson

The weather has been hot this week we have all been sitting out in the garden enjoying the sun for most of the week. James had been playing in the Garden and Mandy has been working very hard doing all the washing and getting it dry out side. I can't wait until the week end, especially since we are going away to Yorkshire. It is a quick visit to the dentist and for the rest of the time we shall be staying with J and his family. It should be good to get a way for a few days and not have to think about that place called work. James is also having a small pre birthday party this weekend as well because it is his birthday on the 9th he will be four, my hasn't time gone quick.

He who never changes, never mends. He who never yields, never conquers. — Charles Spurgeon

Life has been none stop for the last few day I have been enjoying the time off and to be honest I haven't felt like writing anything so I haven't Easter was very good and I would say that it properly be one of the best that I have had for some time. It was good to have family around and to just chill. That’s about all.