I haven't stopped over the last few days what with J staying and work I am fine at the moment I wish that things could be better but I can't do anything about it so I have to just let things go. Work has been fine and I am glad that I am on a late shift because I am in need of lots of sleep. I have had some good new today though James has got in to the school that he/we wanted to get him in to this September. so he is very happy and keeps saying yippee all the time. That’s about all for now I am going to go to bed I think.

I am just waking up as I have been up for about an hour because last night I stayed up until the early hours of the morning talking with J and playing the Lord of the Rings board game. It was the first time that I have played the game and I can say the it is very good and I hope that J leaves it hear when he goes home so that I can play it with Mandy. I have to go to work today but I hope that when I come home tonight J and Mandy will be up for a rematch.

I found this story today and I like it I think that I will use it tonight at Youth Fellowship.

A parable is told of a farmer who owned an old mule. The mule fell into the farmer's well. The farmer came running when he heard the mule braying. After carefully assessing the situation, the farmer sympathized with the mule, but decided that neither the mule nor the well was worth the trouble of saving. Instead, he called his neighbours together and told them what had happened. He enlisted them to help haul dirt to bury the old mule in the well and put him out of his misery. Initially, the old mule was hysterical. (Wouldn't you be, with dirt being flung on you?) But as the farmer and his neighbours shovelled, and the dirt fell into the well, the mule had a thought. It suddenly dawned on him that every time a shovel load of dirt landed on his back, he should shake it off and step up. And that's what he did, shovel load after shovel load. "Shake it off and step up ... shake it off and step up ... shake it off and step up!" he repeated to encourage himself. No matter how painful or distressing the situation seemed, the old mule fought panic and just kept on shaking it off and stepping up. It wasn't long before the old mule, battered and exhausted, stepped triumphantly over the wall of that well! What seemed to bury him actually blessed him--all because of the way he handled his adversity.

Today has been a very good day J has come to stay and he preached a good service at Church today. Even better he treated us all to a McDonalds for lunch after, James loved it. Mandy James and J are all chilling now James is can't leave J alone and Mandy is probably about to fall asleep if she can and I am thinking about the youth fellowship meeting that I have go tonight but I hope to chill as well.

Mandy, James and I are just chilling today as it has been snowing out side for most of the day but the sun has come out and it is melting fast. James wanted to make a snowman but the snow want right he was a little upset about it but I have told him that if it snows again the we will try to make one form him.

I have noticed for some time now that I keep getting hits for this site from Google. They all seem to be from people who keep asking things like I HATE MY LIFE!!!! I know that we can all say things like this some times, I have many times in my life. I don't enjoy being sad, or angry, or discouraged, or any of those other unhappy feelings. I appreciate that these feelings are a part of life, and I learned a lot from them. They motivated me to make some significant changes in my life; changes that are making my life run a whole lot smoother. I always turn to God for help with my life and I can say that he has always been there for me. Sometimes we can help ourselves when we are feeling low one thing that I have found helpful to do is to think of things that make me happy or things that I am thankful about in my life. One of the most important ways to create abundance and prosperity in your life is to become aware of the multitude of blessings that are already present I sometimes write a list so that I can asses what I am thankful for. It is good to keep this list and when you are feeling low or ignored in your life, this is the perfect time to reread your thank you entries. It will point out to you the amount of goodness that is present in every moment of your life and help you to get the blues in perspective. Here is a copy of a list that I have made of the blessing in my life there is no particular order in this list it is just as they come and each one is a blessing in my life.

· Finding God
· Falling in love.
· My first kiss with my wife.
· Hugging the person you love.
· A special glance.
· Holding hands with someone you care about.
· My son
· Hugs from my son
· Kisses from my son
· Laughing so hard your face hurts.
· Lying in bed listening to the rain outside.
· A hot shower.
· Taking a drive on a pretty road.
· Hearing your favourite song on the radio.
· Chocolate
· A good conversation.
· Laughing at yourself.
· The beach.
· Laughing at an inside joke.
· Waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left to sleep.
· Friends.
· Watching a good movie cuddled up on a couch with someone you love
· Spending time with close friends.
· Riding a bike downhill.
· Discovering that love is unconditional and stronger than time.
· Watching the sunrise.
· Seeing smiles and hearing laughter from your friends.

May god bless you and if you are feeling low then feel free to use my list to find some blessing in your life.

I remeber some of these days Once Were Heroes!
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The alarm went of this morning and all that I remember was hearing a song on the radio and then hitting the clock back on to snooze. I hate getting up early for work it really makes me feels sick and tired. The worst thing about getting up is the cold and the dark my bed seemed far away as I walked out the door. I opened it to find that it was raining and the wind was blowing, it sent a cold shiver down my spine. I quickly rushed to the car and had to look for my keys. I got to work and had to have a coffee to warm myself up. The rest off my day at work was ok I just felt like I wanted the day to finish so that I could get home to sit and have a hot drink, as I felt cold all day. Mandy and James were waiting for me and we all went shipping late afternoon.
Today was my hospital radio day so I had to leave the house again to do a show which I enjoyed doing a lot, the weather seem to be a lot worse than the morning and I had to run to the car again to keep the rain off me. The show went well and I felt like I had a good time. I got home helped Mandy make a cake which has made the house smell wonderful and the finished cake looks very nice well done Mandy. I haven’t got the get up tomorrow as I am not working this weekend, I think Mandy will have a hard time getting me out of bed in the morning especially if it is raining and cold again.

I have been away for 24hours and am glad to have the break but equally glad to be back home the only bad thing is that I have to go to work tomorrow and I have to get up early as well. James loved binging with his grandparents and was sad to leave be had rain all the time we were there so we didn't get out much but it was still nice to see family and just chill.

I hate it when Blogger doesn’t let me do any thing I have had to restart and try three times to get this to post..

Well what’s been happening then in my life? First I feel a lot better about myself and things seem to be better all round I just needed to let of some steam and have a time out. Mandy and I have been decorating the kitchen over the last few days and I have just finished striping one wall of its paper. Mandy has become a gloss queen, as she is far better at glossing than me so I like it when she offers to do it. James is off school because it is half term so he has been at home all week and Mandy has been doing a great job of looking after him. Work if fine and I have got Thursday of because we are all going to Yorkshire on Wednesday for the night, so I will properly not be posting until Thursday night. That's about all that has happened with my life so far this week I will have to see what else is around the corner.

Every time I try and post on blogger it hasn't worked for the last few day I hope that it works this time.

Things are getting better I have got the weekend of and I can spend some time with the family. Work has been ok and Mandy and James are ok as well.

I hate not having time to get things done and I hate not getting time to myself. I know one thing I am just fed up. Fed up with not having any money, fed up with having to go to work to have nothing to show for it and I am fed up with having to try and juggle thing all the time I whish that I could just hide. Life is hard and I am feeling the pinch this month to say the least.

Work sleep, work sleep and more work. I haven't had much time to get to a computer I will see what happends tonight after work.

Today has been grate Church was brill and Youth fellowship was even better I felt very good after going to them. the rest of the day has been just full of sleeping and chilling in front of the TV and I also spent some QT with Mandy and James although it felt like I spent more time with James than Mandy. I have Just been working on the Youth web site that I run and have just been playing with things that is about all I will see what else happens.

Will has won then I am glad I think that he was the better of the two and I know that Gareth will do just as well, that's all I have to say.

Blogger has been playing up over the last few days so I haven't had chance to do any thing. I have just go in from work and I have been on my feet all day I just want to sit down and chill with a cup of tea in my hand. there is one problem wit that I have been told that my sister-in-law and her husband and son are calling in on their way to London so I have to be on my best manners. it will be nice to see them again.

Good day today life seems fine and I had a night in alone with James as Mandy was out at a meeting. I am going to bed now. I will see what tomorrow brings.

Enterprise was grate and I am going to bed because I am on early tomorrow BOOO!

I see tha the BBC have got into Blogging now. I blog, therefore I am

Interesting day today I go to work and things seemed to go down hill form then on. Every time I tried to do something it went wrong. Then it was raining when I got out from work and I was like a very large drenched rat, thankfully Mandy had come to my rescue and picked me up on the way home from work. We came home and listened to a new CD that I got and then went out looking for new tiles for the kitchen. James has just gone to bed and I haven’t heard from him since so he must be asleep and Mandy is watching her soaps. I am listing to Robbie Williams CD Swing When Your listening and am enjoying the new sound of Robbie, I can say that I am not really a fan of all his music but I like the old sound that he has got on he new album. I think that he has come a long way from the days of Take That and has grown up a lot.
I can’t wait for the next episode of Star Trek Enterprise to night. I think that the Star Trek creation team have got the crew just right and I think that I like the Vulcan Science Officer Sub Commander T'Pol (Jolene Blalock) she is a fox and I guess that there are already a good number of fans out there after the photos that he has done for Maxim Magazine.

I have been preparing a sermon for the last few days so I haven't had much time to do much else but things have been ok here and I have had a sort of a good weekend. The sermon was preached and I think that it went well. Slept for most of the rest of the time apart from starting decorating the kitchen on Saturday I wonder how long it will be before it is finished.